I have always been a Sensitive, however I didn't always know that I was a Sensitive. A Sensitive is someone who can pick up thoughts and feelings from others. The problem is that if you don't know that you are a sensitive it can be very confusing. The thoughts and feelings of others, feel as if they are your own. It becomes very important for you to know yourself, your thoughts and emotions. We are all born with empathic abilities. If we are born with average empathic abilities then it weakens over time. If you are born with more than average abilities, it does not weaken over the years because it is continually being used.
About 15 years ago, I had a reading that validated my childhood and my Sensitivity. I was shocked. I always felt different from others. I thought something was wrong with me. I didn't realized that half of my emotions and thoughts didn't belong to me. My insecurities showed and there was always someone that I encountered whether family or acquaintances that would put a spotlight on me when I was "tripping" so to speak. "Kathleen, you're so quiet, are you OK?". Little did I know that it was mostly THEIR problems I was trying to process which caused me to feel confused and quite often overwhelmed. When you don't know that you are a Sensitive, your gift can and usually is turned against you.
I also had way of just knowing that something was going to happen. I remember when I was ten, my grandmother was in the hospital. I was not told of her condition. When I went to the hospital to see my grandmother, I knew that it would be the last time I would see and talk to her. It was the last time I saw her. She had cancer and died shortly after. I also knew that my son Brandon was not going to make it when he was born prematurely. I had twins, Ryan and Brandon, and we were told they both had a 50 percent chance of living. My son Ryan today is 16. Shortly after Brandon's death, we were pleasantly surprised with the news of my daughter Bryanna (who is now 15).
The guilt I carried knowing of the deaths of both my grandmother and Brandon was insurmountable. I thought I caused their deaths by thinking it and that I accepted it too soon and didn't do enough to prevent it. Over the years, as I learned about my Sensitivity, I knew that I did not cause events to happen because of my knowledge beforehand. I came to embrace my Sensitivity. I knew that I was different and was becoming proud of it instead of feeling like there was something wrong with me. I came to terms with my son's death as I learned that it was not my fault. I had kept going over in my head that if only I did this and that during my pregnancy,I could have prevented the whole tragedy. It came to my knowledge that some things are karmic and they are meant to happen.
It's been a long journey for me to "own" my gifts. I had many lessons. I had to learn to come into my own and really know myself. The biggest gift I gave myself, was to give myself the compassion that I looked for so hard from others. Compassion in the face of my journey.
I am a strong feeling Sensitive. When I do readings, I can feel the energy in my hand reading the chakras. Most people think about reading a aura using their sight. I am a strong feeling Sensitive so I can feel the energy. I laugh at the fact that I can't see with my eyes as much as my hands. When someone is showing something to me, I have a strong need to touch it to see it.
I invite Arch Angel Michael in all my readings, as I do feel his strong presence. I am liking the person that I am becoming and with the help of the readings that I have done and the feedback that I have received from many of you, I am able to work through my obstacle of believing in my gifts and abilities.
Author Resource:-
I am a Sensitive and have been giving readings for several years now. I am working towards doing them professionally. At this time, I provide sponsor (free) readings through the OCC Membership which can be found at www.oralin.com. I hope this resonates with your experiences. Kathleen Heintzelman
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